Bye Bye Mommy!
July 30, 2009
I’m leaving for a conference on Sunday for work. This is the first conference I’ve been to since 2005 – well before Xander was born. Aside from 1 week when Xander was 6 months old, this is the longest I will have been away from my children, ever. And I have never left them home with their dad, not even for one overnight. It sounds bad when I write it that way, but it hasn’t been intentional – it just hasn’t worked out that I’ve needed to be away from home for long. I have complete faith that everything will be just fine at home while I’m gone. I know that it’s a lot of work to juggle our two boys, but Zach can handle it. Their clothes might not match when they leave for day care, and they might have a few crumbs still smeared on their faces, but they’ll be clean, and well fed and happy.
But, being the worrier that I am, I do worry. I worry that Xander won’t have shifted back to preferring Daddy tuck him in before I go. I worry that Zach will be just exhausted when I get home if Parker doesn’t sleep well. I worry that I won’t be around when Parker finally learns to crawl. I worry that I’ll be shy and nervous and won’t network well at my conference. I worry that I won’t have the right clothes – I’ll be over dressed, or under dressed or too hot or too cold. I worry that my computer won’t connect to the UVM network and I’ll be disconnected for a whole week (ack!) I worry that living in a dorm for a week will really be as uncomfortable as I remember. I worry that I’ll get lost, driving there, or walking around or both. Most of all, I worry that everything will be more than fine at home, it’ll be great and it’ll turn out that my boys really don’t need me around as much as I had led myself to believe… And then I feel bad worrying about that, because isn’t that the best possible scenario if everyone is happy and content?
But, regardless of everything else, I will get four straight nights of uninterrupted blissful sleep, and that in itself is worth all of the worrying!
Sara, I am more than sure that everything will go just fine!! I am sure they might miss you (Zach included!!) How great for you to go to a conference…I can safely say and without exageration (I think I killed that word…must be the lack of sleep) my husband could not manage for even close to a week!!! (Not even knowing Zach that well, I am quite certain he has enough unwavering patience to master this!!!) Good luck!